Psalm, that's such a beautiful, sad set of observations. I am glad I'm not the only one for what specific places still hold these powerful conflicting emotions. Sometimes I think I would like to "reclaim" all of the places that still hold such anxiety and tension for me, almost like an exorcism for some of them LOL.
I know I do not like visiting certain places from my past because it seems to take a couple of days to recover from the mental/spiritual trips they take me on, but with some of them I have had the chance to drive out the painful memories with more powerful good memories, and that helps.
And I know that writing helps me more than anything else. Journaling and writing your feelings (as you've done) about what that place made you feel - that can be very strong healing. It is hard for some dark painful thoughts to survive once we bring them up to the bright, cleansing light of day.
GL