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crzylilmndfreak · 05-13-2009, 12:47 PM

I am soo distraught, i can barely have a conversation with my dog let alone any PERSON... i can talk for maybe a min, then feel like i need to RUN away, keep thinking "how am i gonna get out of this situation... how do i stop talking to this person without being downright rude...how do i get out of this, how do i get out of this" get the picture??lol
I dont know what to do with myself, i have been sober 14 months now, and as i have said in prior posts, my neighbors are outside CONSTANTLY having BBQs and partying, last night they were out there whoop whoop ing it up playing beer pong, its right outside my window! and ya, one said "You can come out it you want" this social anxiety thing is absolutely debilitating me, like i am in my own personal jail in my app. I dont even really like them, because they are allways drinking, and acting drunk, but they LOOK like they are having so much fun! my therapist said "just try to think how much you DONT want to be like that, acting drunk, etc. but i DO! i miss it so much, dont get me wrong, i am glad to be sober, i still have my family, and i am so grateful for that, but i just wish i could drink like a normal person, without the terrible consequenses, but i know i cant, i dont know, i am just very frustrated, thanx for lettin me vent!!

05-13-2009, 12:47 PM	#1 (permalink)
crzylilmndfreak Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Posts: 320	small talk I am soo distraught, i can barely have a conversation with my dog let alone any PERSON... i can talk for maybe a min, then feel like i need to RUN away, keep thinking "how am i gonna get out of this situation... how do i stop talking to this person without being downright rude...how do i get out of this, how do i get out of this" get the picture??lol I dont know what to do with myself, i have been sober 14 months now, and as i have said in prior posts, my neighbors are outside CONSTANTLY having BBQs and partying, last night they were out there whoop whoop ing it up playing beer pong, its right outside my window! and ya, one said "You can come out it you want" this social anxiety thing is absolutely debilitating me, like i am in my own personal jail in my app. I dont even really like them, because they are allways drinking, and acting drunk, but they LOOK like they are having so much fun! my therapist said "just try to think how much you DONT want to be like that, acting drunk, etc. but i DO! i miss it so much, dont get me wrong, i am glad to be sober, i still have my family, and i am so grateful for that, but i just wish i could drink like a normal person, without the terrible consequenses, but i know i cant, i dont know, i am just very frustrated, thanx for lettin me vent!!