Hi sweets! Early recovery for me was insane! My emotions could on a dime- I was raw and sensitive, out of control often and the thought of using was right there.
The mantra "God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, courage to things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." was one that I repeated over and over again as I went about my day.
There is a reading in the Big Book in the first 168 pages that you can read each morning upon waking- and one you can read each evening. My suggestion is to find that and read it, start your day over and see what happens.
If you are still triggered emotionally, you can email me, and I would be happy to talk you through some de-escalation!
Much love and light to you!~Cheryl