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CrisDavis · 05-04-2009, 11:00 AM

Hello, I am a 22 year old male with an alcohol/cocaine addiction. I have been in A.A. since December 5, 2007. I attend meetings fairly often but cannot seem to stay sober "one day at a time", so I need help understanding the first step in recovery before I can comprehend the next Eleven(11). I am feeling hopeless and in despair. I want to quit but I absolutely cannot by myself. I have been working very hard on Step One(1), but I want to make darn sure that I am in the right direction before proceeding with a sponsor on Step Two(2). I believe Step One(1) is not regularily discussed at meetings enough. I would like to thank you in advance for posting on this thread!.

We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable.

I can think of no other example of powerlessness over our addiction than wanting to NOT use, and using anyway. It is always our choice, minute by minute, hour by hour to hook up or not. I know that for me, step one seemed hard because of my own lack of committment to being clean. What I really wanted was the joy I used to have in the high. I wanted to WANT to be hign, instead of HAVING to be high. When I was finally sick and tired of being sick and tired, I found out that staying clean was just a matter of STAYING CLEAN. Getting sober, on the other hand, took work on my part, and the first step in that was seeking help from others who had already acheived what I wanted, not the ones that were dealing with what I had.

Don't use. No matter what. No matter the bone aching want, don't.use. Go to meetings. 90 in 90 days is a suggestion... you can go to 120. You can go to 240. You can go to rehab, or live at the meeting house. Talk to people. Everyone all the time. Don't use. There is nothing that can make it easier. There is nothing that can make it okay. It's what you have to do.

05-04-2009, 11:00 AM	#3 (permalink)
CrisDavis Member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: Oklahoma City OK Posts: 2	Hello, I am a 22 year old male with an alcohol/cocaine addiction. I have been in A.A. since December 5, 2007. I attend meetings fairly often but cannot seem to stay sober "one day at a time", so I need help understanding the first step in recovery before I can comprehend the next Eleven(11). I am feeling hopeless and in despair. I want to quit but I absolutely cannot by myself. I have been working very hard on Step One(1), but I want to make darn sure that I am in the right direction before proceeding with a sponsor on Step Two(2). I believe Step One(1) is not regularily discussed at meetings enough. I would like to thank you in advance for posting on this thread!. We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable. I can think of no other example of powerlessness over our addiction than wanting to NOT use, and using anyway. It is always our choice, minute by minute, hour by hour to hook up or not. I know that for me, step one seemed hard because of my own lack of committment to being clean. What I really wanted was the joy I used to have in the high. I wanted to WANT to be hign, instead of HAVING to be high. When I was finally sick and tired of being sick and tired, I found out that staying clean was just a matter of STAYING CLEAN. Getting sober, on the other hand, took work on my part, and the first step in that was seeking help from others who had already acheived what I wanted, not the ones that were dealing with what I had. Don't use. No matter what. No matter the bone aching want, don't.use. Go to meetings. 90 in 90 days is a suggestion... you can go to 120. You can go to 240. You can go to rehab, or live at the meeting house. Talk to people. Everyone all the time. Don't use. There is nothing that can make it easier. There is nothing that can make it okay. It's what you have to do.