[firestorm090]

It's really convenient to say, "Go to meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps, and ultimately wait till you have a spiritual awakening" so you can live a life where you don't want a drink every day.

Come on folks, stop bullshitting me.

I'm not here to argue, but damn it, if I must argue, then so be it. I want someone to take the time and explain to me, hell I'll give you my phone number, but tell me please how do you have a spiritual experience?

I went to two meetings today and I heard, "If you want what we have..", hell I looked at the guy and thought, no thanks guy, you can keep it. Oh, fs, you must have misinterpreted the message, come on, hell I'm fifty years old, have managed a lot of guys over the years, and sure as hell didn't want what he had. I don't care how long he has been without a drink, this guy who lead the meeting was and is in my opinion a weirdo, and has no life outside of his kingdom in the meeting, which is why he is there every day.

For the record, whatever you may think, as if I give a damn, if the only solution is a spiritual awakening, then let's talk about that. How do these steps lead to a spiritual awakening?

Step 1 - Admitted we are powerless over alcohol and our lives had become unmanageable. OK, I admit that.

Step 2 - Came to believe a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. I've always believed in God.

Step 3 - Made a decision to turn our will and lives over to the care of God as we understand Him, asking only of His will for us and the power to carry that out. OK, I've said the third step prayer.

Well, there you have it fs, you're on step four. Come on. Is this for real?

Well, if I'm on step four, why the hell am I so miserable?


Oh, I'm sorry, you have all the answers, and you haven't drank for a million years, but you can't explain what is a spiritual awakening. Geez, what's up with that?

I'll tell you one thing, if I knew how to help a drunk turn his life around and find some peace during his/her lifetime, I'd scream it from the rooftops, not sit here and say, "Hey, go to meetings, read the BB, find an ******* sponsor, and just don't drink today."

Have we drifted so far from the truth that we sugar coat the message, and rest on our laurels, only to let the lost stay lost?

I am the lost, damn it, and I'm asking you.