[geekorunique]

Hey Honey - I hope that I can be of some help to you - similar experiences so I will do my best.

You're very young in recovery so please don't expect too much of yourself. I am ten months sober and about eleven months clean. I have also been on and off anti depressants for years. I had tried St Jons Wort but I didn't feel it worked for me.

What you need to do is get into a bit of action to try and stop your mind from wandering so much. Yes I will tell you what you expected and that is to get to your doctor - advice on here is great but noone is a substitute for your doctor. In the meantime - keep taking the St Jons Wort - I know for a fact it works for some people as my sister has been on it for years with no negative side effects and it helped her get off prozac. A few things to help produce serotonin are exercise and in small doses chocolate! Be good to yourself - be kind to yourself.

Have you thought about AA? Or NA? Alcoholics anonymous has saved my life. I have been up and down with bipolar for a long time but am only just getting medical help for it. It's been through the fellowship of AA that I have had the strength to do something for myself. I am on high doses of anti depressants and yeah sometimes I struggle but when I do I have AA to fall back on and the people in it.

I promise if you put some hard work into your recovery things will get better.

Wishing you all the love and success in the world.

K xxx