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Zant808 · 04-26-2009, 02:32 PM

Hello, I am new here. I am in quite serious trouble. I have taken over 20 psychiatric medications over 10 years which has destroyed my brain. I was fortunate to get off of all medications around July 2007 but around Memorial Day 2008 I decided to start drinking alcohol. I had previously been on benzos and I didn't realize how bad alcohol was for me. I kept drinking every weekend up until November 2008 where I become totally insane from insomnia. In my total panic I went to get 10mg of valium again but that didn't work to put me to sleep. I haven't slept normally since November 2008. I am very lonely and I drank again (not on the benzos though) on Valentines Day and a couple of times in March and at the beginning of April in the hopes that the alcohol would put me to sleep but it didn't work. Now I had to take another 10mg of valium the other day and another 10mg of valium to stop myoclonic jerks in my head. I still have not slept. I don't know if inpatient psychiatric care can get my sleep regulated again through a med cocktail. I have no mental health coverage anymore because I thought I was ok since I went off meds and was decent for a year. I even quit my job, got my own place and started my own business. The business did not do well and now I'm going bankrupt. I guess I have an alcohol and benzo problem now. I'm just scared and I don't know what to do. I want another shot at being off the meds and staying alcohol free FOR LIFE. My diagnosis is bipolar but I still suspect its just the meds that caused the manias and depressions since for that 1 year off I was stable. Any suggestions you may have would be appreciated.

04-26-2009, 02:32 PM	#1 (permalink)
Zant808 Member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: NJ Posts: 2	Bad reaction to alcohol... Hello, I am new here. I am in quite serious trouble. I have taken over 20 psychiatric medications over 10 years which has destroyed my brain. I was fortunate to get off of all medications around July 2007 but around Memorial Day 2008 I decided to start drinking alcohol. I had previously been on benzos and I didn't realize how bad alcohol was for me. I kept drinking every weekend up until November 2008 where I become totally insane from insomnia. In my total panic I went to get 10mg of valium again but that didn't work to put me to sleep. I haven't slept normally since November 2008. I am very lonely and I drank again (not on the benzos though) on Valentines Day and a couple of times in March and at the beginning of April in the hopes that the alcohol would put me to sleep but it didn't work. Now I had to take another 10mg of valium the other day and another 10mg of valium to stop myoclonic jerks in my head. I still have not slept. I don't know if inpatient psychiatric care can get my sleep regulated again through a med cocktail. I have no mental health coverage anymore because I thought I was ok since I went off meds and was decent for a year. I even quit my job, got my own place and started my own business. The business did not do well and now I'm going bankrupt. I guess I have an alcohol and benzo problem now. I'm just scared and I don't know what to do. I want another shot at being off the meds and staying alcohol free FOR LIFE. My diagnosis is bipolar but I still suspect its just the meds that caused the manias and depressions since for that 1 year off I was stable. Any suggestions you may have would be appreciated.