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Originally Posted by sugErspun  What Step One feels like..
It was not pleasant... basically I realize I am going to drink again, and I really don't want to ~ but there is nothing I can do about it. For me, step one = "I am sc3wed".
Then something is offered that "might" work. It's only gonna take a miracle. |
Wow. I'm having one of those tingling moments where I hear somebody else telling my story and I can relate completely. That is my exact description. When I share about that in meetings, the phrase I use is "I'm f**ked," just because it's more descriptive and was actually how I felt. It wasn't any notion that I needed to do something about my drinking, that I had really screwed up, that I was an alcoholic. It was that I'm f**ked and there is nothing I am ever going to do that will change it. No way out. Still painful to remember. I tend to stay close to that feeling, relive it at times, like now. For me, all steps lead right back to step 1.
And then this tiny bit of hope and tiny bit of willingness pops into the picture and it every changes. Great stuff. Thanks.