This break up is making me relive my first husband's death too.I never got over him,when I met my second husband I was still grieving for him.The second husband was there for me then,he also became a Dad to my two children who were 4 and 2.I was extremely lonely and being able to have him there to share my life with seemed like such a Godsend but not long later I noticed his drinking out of control,threw him out twice within the first two years then I married him after..we became drinking buddies later.I had three relapses tried putting the drink down and succeeded.He switched addictions and does not see it that way.Today is a new day though and I will never allow and addict back here.He is missing out on his youngest two growing up,but when he was here he was missing out too .The children don't have to live with him and it anymore.They are healing and I think I am too..ever so slowly but I am
