[musicisluv]

So I haven't been on here in quite some time, but I guess this is what Step One feels like? I feel clairity already, if only I could keep this feeling. I haven't drank for 6 days, which is odd for me not to be out. I have a headache and I'm thinking alot of what alcohol has done to me lately. I have somewhat devised a plan that I'm going to try to stick with - and to hopefully move on to Step Two. I work in a bar, which alchohol is around, but I feel as if this will be my motivation. I chose to take this job on the weekends so I wouldn't go out anymore on them. There is a no drinking on the job rule at my work, and I have been following it. So forth, after work drinking is always taking place after hours with staff. I have the decision to whether or not I want to stick around and have a coke, or leave. Those are my only two options. Any ideas on how to improve headaches? Or sleeplessness? Oh another thing. I have told close friends about my decision to "quit drinking for as long as I could".. and some support, and some say otherwise. I want to stick by my supportive, sober friends. I want to rekindle friendships with sober friends I have lost/grown apart with on account of alcohol. I want to try new things other than going out to the bars, and if I do go out to the bars, do what I used to do, have a red bull and get jiggy with it. All of this will have to be spoken of later. I feel as if my mind isn't ready to be in a bar yet. I shouldn't be thinking that way just yet. Clairity & change is what I'm striving for on this attempt. I have promised myself way too much this time to slip again.