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Silla · 04-22-2009, 11:15 AM

thanks guys.

I called my sponsor and left her a long rambly message about it so I'll see what she says. I know that staying sane is more important than staying "clean" but I honestly think that if I started taking benzos again I'd be right back where I was, taking 10 or more pills a day. I might have to figure this out without the ativan.

If my sponsor thinks that I shouldn't take extra medication (she's ok with my bipolar meds so far) then I'll find a new sponsor. This is scary and it's definitely more important and life threatening. I'm moving to a new city (probably partly responsible for the mania) and once I'm there, there's a Dual Recovery Anonymous meeting, which combines mental health diagnoses with addiction. They will understand, at least.

He did increase my seroquel to try and head this off but it hasn't worked yet.

Thanks for being there... I'll see what happens but if it comes down to it, I'll take the benzo. As long as I'm not too far gone. At least I can recognize it now and do what I can to stop it. Which I guess might include the benzo. It was clonazepam that I had the trouble with anyway.

04-22-2009, 11:15 AM	#4 (permalink)
Silla Member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: Canada Posts: 15	thanks guys. I called my sponsor and left her a long rambly message about it so I'll see what she says. I know that staying sane is more important than staying "clean" but I honestly think that if I started taking benzos again I'd be right back where I was, taking 10 or more pills a day. I might have to figure this out without the ativan. If my sponsor thinks that I shouldn't take extra medication (she's ok with my bipolar meds so far) then I'll find a new sponsor. This is scary and it's definitely more important and life threatening. I'm moving to a new city (probably partly responsible for the mania) and once I'm there, there's a Dual Recovery Anonymous meeting, which combines mental health diagnoses with addiction. They will understand, at least. He did increase my seroquel to try and head this off but it hasn't worked yet. Thanks for being there... I'll see what happens but if it comes down to it, I'll take the benzo. As long as I'm not too far gone. At least I can recognize it now and do what I can to stop it. Which I guess might include the benzo. It was clonazepam that I had the trouble with anyway.