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LauraS · 04-19-2009, 08:36 PM

I worked through to step 3 with my sponsor last Saturday. We went over how to do the fourth step, and I have not been able to get it started. I know that I need to start but, frankly, it all seems like there is not enough paper on Earth for me to list everything. I've hashed through so much of it already in various forms of therapy and other group work and left it behind years ago. The idea of dragging out the old baggage again is actually making me feel sleepy.

Part of my issue, I know, is that much of the work I did in the past with this stuff centered around issues related to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, which manifests itself in me by triggering the flight response most of the time. I avoid, and when I can't avoid, my body wants to shut it down, and I get sleepy. I know that sounds strange, but hopefully someone here will relate to it.

Anyway, I am not sure what I am looking for by posting this. Maybe just some encouragement to do it anyway. I fully intend to pick up the pen and start writing as soon as I finish this post... because I know that I have to. I just don't want to.

04-19-2009, 08:36 PM	#1 (permalink)
LauraS Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Somewhere west of the Mississippi Posts: 161	Procrastinating on step 4 I worked through to step 3 with my sponsor last Saturday. We went over how to do the fourth step, and I have not been able to get it started. I know that I need to start but, frankly, it all seems like there is not enough paper on Earth for me to list everything. I've hashed through so much of it already in various forms of therapy and other group work and left it behind years ago. The idea of dragging out the old baggage again is actually making me feel sleepy. Part of my issue, I know, is that much of the work I did in the past with this stuff centered around issues related to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, which manifests itself in me by triggering the flight response most of the time. I avoid, and when I can't avoid, my body wants to shut it down, and I get sleepy. I know that sounds strange, but hopefully someone here will relate to it. Anyway, I am not sure what I am looking for by posting this. Maybe just some encouragement to do it anyway. I fully intend to pick up the pen and start writing as soon as I finish this post... because I know that I have to. I just don't want to.