Ugh.
Bad day for food.
I have a problem with over-eating. I eat and eat and eat way past fullness at times.
Today started off well. I went for a walk but had to turn back because I almost crapped my pants. Sometimes the bowel movement system acts up during the most inconvenient of times.
I had walked about 5 miles yesterday and almost that amount a couple of days beforehand.
I’ve eaten way too much today despite the fact that my insides are revolting.
At least I work tonight. That means I won’t be able to eat non-stop in the evening.
I need to nip this in the bud in a hurry. I don’t know what to do. Should I chew on pencils? Maybe it sounds weird, but it’s like I have a strong urge to keep shoving things in my mouth (no, nothing pervy
). Why? WTF? I’ve smoked more cigs than normal, too. I can tell myself, “At least I’m not drinking,” but whoppie doo! I’m still damaging myself. I want the madness to stop.
(I’m really anxious today…don’t know why…the antidepressant I’m on has been keeping it mostly in check…but for some reason today it’s kind of bad…I’ve also been awake for the last 13 hours and I’ll be awake for at least another 8...I’m sure that’s not helping…but I couldn’t nap today…Ugh.)