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Oh wow, your story was very familiar to me. I bounce back and forth ALL THE TIME! I also struggled, got better, went back and forth, then when I got pregnant went cold turkey, felt great and then started going back to bulimia when my relationship with my husband started going bad. Although we are together, it just is always my comfort for when I have a problem.
I think that us bulimirexics as you referred to it I think (I just call myself an A/B) are always going to have those slips. Its not like we are cocaine addicts and we can just stay away from the coke. FOOD IS ESSENTIAL! It is unavoidable! We do not get enough credit for doing as well as we do.
The men probably have something to do with what is going on here, but really if the ED was "gone" it wouldn't have come back. Your "stinking thinking" (which I am sure you heard enough in treatment) just never went away. Somewhere back in your head there is something that is still telling you you aren't important or good enough to stop hurting yourself. This is where you need to start. Forget those guys. Their actions aren't going to "make" you do anything. Sure its a terrible and stressful situation, but your confidence level and self-respect is what is going to keep you away from participating in ED behaviors. FIND THAT CONFIDENCE, whether it be with your therapist or from some kind of support group. You need to remind yourself you are worth taking care of, even if its just for yourself. You are important and need to be cared for as well
Love yourself
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