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Hi,
ok so I totally relate to you.
I have had problems with food since I was a child. I used crystal meth to stay slim and it brought me to my knees and I got off drugs. Then in recovery I discovereed bulimia, which led to dieting, which led to binging which led back to bulimia to dieting etc etc etc and I have been binging almost every night for the past year. Sometimes I stop and it feels like I'm free.
The most painful part is that I feel like I'm losing everything too: school, boyfriends, friends, myself............... I look at myself in the mirror and dont even recognize myself. I dont know what it is going to take for me to stop. and it has to stop. it hurts.
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