Well, you've been through a rough time lately, SE,
With your arrest, car accident, and putting the dog down.
Those are some pretty serious things to go through.
Are you still drinking?
I do not know if there's anything chemically wrong or not.
You question that.
But, I do know that alcohol is a depressant.
And it can and will lead to depression when it's abused for a long time.
And when you stop drinking,
It takes time to overcome the effects.
Death is not the answer here.
Your problems, as listed, are able to be overcome.
With work, with determination and with some help from your friends.
You can overcome everything I've seen listed on your previous posts.
It begins with putting down the booze.
And accepting responsibility.
Please realize that the grief process does take time.
And you will go through many different stages as you mourn the loss of your dog.
I've been there.
I'm so sorry.
Time will heal....
And time, well...it just takes time.
We're here for you.
Shalom!