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Originally Posted by bartender129  ...and here is why.
You know I hear old timers at meetings talk about what convinced them of step one and what it took them to get there.
Yet I will tell you with 100% certainty that I am an alcoholic. But I can never relate to other people in the rooms 1st step stories since I have never felt powerless.
That is some scary **** to me.
I don't want and I am terrified of a deeper bottom.
I'm grateful and scared at the same time. |
i'm an old timer [+27 years] and if you're so sure you're an alcoholic then what makes you think you don't relate?
not understanding powerlessness has nothing to do with bottoms and everything to do with addiction and recovery experiences. denying powerlessness as an alcoholic is part of that cruel garden variety addiction cycle. accepting powerlessness is part of the everyday life-saving recovery process... this is not rocket science
as for being afraid of a deeper bottom... who isn't... not just you believe me guy. the world is over-filled with drinkers not wanting things to get worse... lol
anyways... what really are you scared of...
being alcoholic and drinking or
being alcoholic and not drinking... or
being sober...
as for denial... lol.. that is also just human nature as well... alcoholics don't have a special claim to that.
you may want to revisit your opinions on what you consider powerlessness to actually be in a persons everyday life
RR