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What really scared me was the old self destruct stink'in think'in, telling me if I threw that money away, why not throw every thing away, why even try I'll just screw it up. My disease is alive and watching for me to set myself up. As usually happen's when I get honest and write something out in front God and another person, I get a clearer understanding, I now realize that $40. just opened the door to all the anger that was caused by the frustrations of making mistakes that really cost me in the past, and the fear of making more. I am stuck in this place of fear and thought I had let it go and accepted it.
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You don't sound stuck to me, Jurneyman. Yes, you were triggered, but you spotted the trigger and did something about it and shared it without using.
Triggers can knock me off balance too, and I have developed a few tactics that help me change my focus in a hurry when triggered. Giving it to God is one of them and as odd as it may sound, it works for me.
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