[MCake]

Dolce,

Please, don't be embarassed by your feelings. They are natural and healthy. You have a right to feel them, and to express them in whatever way you can. Keep in mind that you should not be held accountable for other people's actions, including your parents': you are your own person, their mistakes are not your mistakes. There is nothing "wrong" with you.

I definitely agree with Teach, this is a situation that deserves your full attention, and trusting your counselor is probably the best way to go about it. If your friends seem to be unwilling to hear you out, don't blame yourself - again, don't feel responsible for other people's actions. Loneliness sucks, but sometimes it's a good thing, as it may help you decide who you are and what you want; being true to yourself is a gift.

In any case, don't escape the pain. The pain itself isn't morbid or freaky but, as you probably well know, our reaction to it is what may lead us into trouble such as addiction. I would encourage you to keep facing it, as you are already, and to seek out more solutions. Do it for yourself - you deserve it