I can't speak for every one but, I've went through periods in my life where, I had doubts.
I've been sober enough now, I got to enjoy having grand kids come into this world.
Been a real blessing for me from up above. I keep in my mind. God's love for me is the same I have everytime, I hear my grand kids say, I love you grand pa,
I have conversations with God all day and most every day. If, my mind was talking out loud, I'd be locked up !!
I know, there's a God, I'm not God and I'm ok with that today