Old 03-19-2009, 10:40 AM
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Freedom1990
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Wow, did I ever need to read this thread. That wanting to 'curl up in a ball' feeling was what I had for soooo many years, even years into my recovery!

My brother (and only sibling) was the one who could never do any wrong. He's the one who's become the pillar of his community, the work-a-holic ( a mini-me of Dad), and I'm the black sheep, the addict/alcoholic.

My parents can launch into 'toxic mode' in the blink of an eye, usually over some crisis one of my daughters has created for themselves, and suddenly all this venom gets puked up (from my past) out of my parents' mouths and blindsides me (more often from my mom), stuff over 20 years old that they try to apply to why it's my fault to the current situation!
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