Hi
In a general sense, the first 90 days or so were filled with shame and guilt. My F@#K up was so huge, in my eyes, I didn't even feel worthy to be part of normal society at times...
Have faith, lots of faith... The Second Step says that "We came to believe that a power greater than ourselves will restore us to sanity." For me, sanity in a large sense meant losing the oceans of shame and guilt. You know what, in large part, I have
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I think that the second step is in exactly the right place... how can we begin the difficult road to recovery with the ball and chain of shame and guilt dragging us down?
Put your energy into looking forward, not backward. And, please, keep the faith, it gets better, it did for me... 6 months C&S.
Mark