 I know how you feel....!
Hello Rhondak
I am at the tail-end of your position. If you are still around and have opportunity to read my posts regarding my codeine addiction and surgery, please do so.
It is very very difficult. I really dont know what to say except when I went into it I had orignally told medical professionals why I didnt take pain meds - because of prior addiction. Then when the time to take them came - my addict self kicked in. In discussing it with friends - we said deal with the addiction once I was at the other end - once the surgery was over.
Well I am here now. And addicted again. My advice, if not too late for you, would be to continue to go to NA meetings if you are able to get to them. I stopped going once the pain set in (I was waiting months for my opertion). I think in hind-sight I should have kept going. At least to stop the self-medicating.
I intend to return to NA tomorrow - it seems the only way.
Let me know how you are doing....SG
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