This sounds like me. I find that for me - if i eat certain things - mostly sugar - once I start, i can't stop. I used to need 'stock piles' of candy bars and foods to be at ease during the day - just knowing they are there for me when i need them. The key is to not start eating that crap in the day. You need to change what you eat to healthy things, and you really start craving those bad foods MUCH less.
Recently I read a book called "Why Can't I Stop Eating?". It is amazing. It's all about compulsive eating - what's at the root of it. And the book suggests that for overeaters, sugar acts a lot like alcohol does for alcoholics. We can't help it, sugar 'triggers' for us to keep eating, and basically overrides our 'off switch' that should normally tell us to 'stop eating, we're full'. Basically the book says you need to cut all excessive sugars from you diet, and goes about outlining workable ways to make that happen.
but it means:
no cookies
no cakes
no junk food
you can still have natural sugars from fruits.
I was truly amazed when i read this book - i recognized myself so much in there. The book basically follows a 12 step plan modelled after AA. It's a really good read. I suggest it.
You can do it. Once you start to change the habits, it gets easier. The motivation really starts to snowball once you get into a program. Starting is the hard part.
good luck
believe in yourself
