[lostbutterfly]

30 days! Ta da! I AM surprised! In one way, time has flown, in others it has gone so slowly.

I feel a bit out of sorts today, I think coz I took my little girl to see her dad and his wife yesterday.

They are active alcoholics, altho she doesn't really get that drunk while the kids are about (unlike me!). When I was drinking too, I'll leave it to your imagination how much we all said to each other that was less than, ummm, civilised!!

I've kind of seen my own part in it all, and since he is losing the use of his legs, his hands and his eyes (and slowly his brain) due to alcohol nerve damage, I think it's time to let some things go.

I feel like we made our peace yesterday. I don't know how long he has left, it is irreversible damage. But alcoholic deaths can be very long and drawn out.

I'm glad he found someone to take care of him - he would be dead by now if he had never met his wife. I know it's not perfect, but she accepts him and loves him. I just loved him, but I couldn't accept his ... drinking and drugging - how ironic life is!!