[Juls]

Hi Sharon,

One thing in your post that hit a note with me is:

" know I shouldn't feel this way and if I talked to people that didn't know I was faking it they would think that I am a wonderful teacher, mother, extremely patient, funny and always willing to help."

I believe that expecting that you "shouldn't" feel what your feeling is an unreasonable expectation. You feel what you feel. Also, most of us at one time or another, and probably alot of alot of the time put on our "facades" when dealing with the outside world, unless your wearing your heart on your sleeve so to speak. We do what we have to do to make it, and the fact that you are able to do it and take care of business means you are alot healthier than you think. It may seem hypocritical, but I don't believe it is. You are doing what you need to do. Of course once you get home then you have more freedom to show your true feelings.

If your therapist is suggesting you take a break from the board, I don't think that is a harmful suggestion. Sometimes I need to take a break from the boards, and maybe you need some time to sort things out on your own. It can confusing to get alot of advice, and not feel sure about what to do. It certainly won't hurt you if you take some time away. The important thing is how do you feel with your therapist. Do you trust her, and feel that you can be open and honest? Is she respectful of your feelings?

Do what you need to do to take care of yourself, because that is what's important.

Juls