[JenT1968]

its okay to be sad, and fine to be fed-up with it as well.
you'll never have to have a "first" spring again, and you can make new memories this year, so that next it will be the first spring since you had all your friends round for a garden party that wasn't ruined, or had a fancy dress party themed around a mad-hatters tea or where you had a big jam making session, or lay under the trees sipping home-made cordial and reading or did an open air theatre under the trees with your neighbours kids or twirled in the sun until you fell over dizzy or climbed all the trees like a big kid or started collecting flowers to press for a collage of your garden or started a photography/painting/pottery project inspired by your garden.... or whatever floats YOUR boat.