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I exhausted myself "helping"my abf through his rough patches, the aftermath of his binges, the whole box and dice and never thought I was just prolonging the agony for both of us. When I went along with the garbage he fed me, forgave his cheating on me, the abuse, lies and financial troubles, it didn't help one little bit to put out the fire of alcoholism and in fact it fed the flames.
It wasn't until I stood firm, refused to "help" anymore or continue with him, that he did follow through with recovery.
I know that it is not in my power to keep him sober, because he must take charge of his life and make his own decisions. I have decided what I want in my life and will not take any more crumbs or stale loaves anymore.
I am worth more than 2nd rate attention, or the occassional pat on the head and I will not settle for less than what I believe I am worth.
God bless
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