I am just feeling so bawged (sp?) down right now.
Man... I feel fustrated with my marriage, I am having a hard time keeping up with the kids and the apt. I just want to curl up in bed and cry.
I thought AH and I had a good therepy session last week. We came to the conclusion that it would be best for the kids and his recovery if we scheduled some visitation times (I would be there of course).
So yesterday I was talking to him and said, "We should probably set up a schedule. What works for you?" He replied that it didn't matter. I said, "Well we need to work around your work schedule so give me somedays that work best." He then replied Sundays from 1-3. I said "that is naptime". He said well it doesn't matter they can not take a nap. Since I don't get to see them unsupervised I don't even think we need to set a schedule.
AHHHHH There we are right back where we began. Man, Do I keep going to the hardware store for bread?
And He also told me that he doesn't want me talking to his parents. I suspect he told them not to talk to me also~ as my FIL has not made his weekly "checking in" phone call. It really bums me out b/c they offered to help with the kids. I really could use some help. I think I may still call them tomorrow since it has been a while. It is a totally manipulative move on his part to pull this and an attempt to make things hard on me or hide things from me.
I knew it would be hard having the three of them on my own, but I can't seem to get anything done. I think I need to just be more organized!
I have a lot more thoughts that I am stressing over ...lol but this post is long enough
Thanks for listening