[Freedom1990]

There is no one worth obsessing over anymore in my life.

I walked away from a college education and scholarship at the age of 18 to start my own research in drugs/alcohol.

After I got into recovery at the age of 28, I eventually became the single parent of two daughters, 10 years apart.

I got in college classes here and there over the years, and twice, I tried to go full-time.

Both times a family crisis arose (each time with one of the daughters) and I became completely enmeshed in the drama/chaos/pain, and once again walked away from an important goal for me and my life!

Once again, last fall, I took the plunge, and this time I made the commitment that I was not going to become enmeshed in anyone else's crap, whether it be one of my daughter's, my toxic parents, anyone.

Lo and behold, my youngest daughter had a self-imposed crisis, and despite everyone trying to suck me in, including my parents, I absolutely and 100% refused to engage, and kept focused on my goal, completing my college degree.

I am taking all of my classes online, 13 credit hours, 2 of those classes being 4 credit hours, and that means an incredible amount of self-discipline and concentration.

That meant there were days I unplugged the damned phone in order not to engage.

I had to filter my dad's emails to trash.

I attended my 12 step meetings faithfully, called my sponsor, and did whatever it took to stay out of the dysfunction and do what I needed to do for me.

I don't need someone's else's validation to make me feel good anymore. I am proud of the progress I have made in my recovery. I will not give the power to someone else to make me feel bad or ruin my day.

As long as you give him the power to make you feel bad, you will continue to be disappointed over and over, and most likely continue to affect your schooling profoundly.

Is he worth it?

:ghug :ghug