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dotcom · 04-29-2004, 10:36 PM

ed,

yes... the times ive gone off my meds the ocd has kicked in and i always hang my socks in a certain way (thats how i tell my mom she will know when im not on meds). and then i go to clean my room which is a crap hole and get going on organizing a box of some junk and cannot move on until i get that box the way i want it... of course i never get it the way i desire and then if i did theres no place to put it because of the state my room is in. so i head to the shelf where i spend too long on... so you can see im too busy to worry about teeth brushing! lol.. i do get that way.

im doing a research paper right now and... its almost perfect. ill tell you. i spent so much time perfecting the intro that im pretty much screwed.

its not just the perfection... since i was young ive had "habits" and ticks that i now can identify as ocd! i got the same rush from doing them as i did on meth. so... i am not such a nut as i thought! thank God!

im sorry to hear you are not doing well. anything i can do just let me know. i think we are all pretty screwy... i hope you find some peace! i am considering the meds seriously. but i did so well! i had a bout of compulsive cutting and vommiting and i stopped that with steps 1-3... and i suppose im hoping the self destructive spiral im in will disappear? heehee

Brent,

thanks for all the help! you rock! i will pray for you and your friend. i can tell you that in the first 4 months i was certifiably a nut (even moreso than now). it was like i was on a sick one, but i was clean. and it was not sick, i was paranoid and delusional. haha. but... i did gain a crap load of weight during that time!

yeah! that station thing rocked! could you pm me the link again? id like to listen again to it but ironically forgot it and probly deleted it... grrr... the dotsters forgetfulness has struck again. haha

BIG THANKS! ROCK ON!

Jess

04-29-2004, 10:36 PM	#7 (permalink)
dotcom Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: laughing at my avatar Posts: 1,636	Re: A Mental Mess! ed, yes... the times ive gone off my meds the ocd has kicked in and i always hang my socks in a certain way (thats how i tell my mom she will know when im not on meds). and then i go to clean my room which is a crap hole and get going on organizing a box of some junk and cannot move on until i get that box the way i want it... of course i never get it the way i desire and then if i did theres no place to put it because of the state my room is in. so i head to the shelf where i spend too long on... so you can see im too busy to worry about teeth brushing! lol.. i do get that way. im doing a research paper right now and... its almost perfect. ill tell you. i spent so much time perfecting the intro that im pretty much screwed. its not just the perfection... since i was young ive had "habits" and ticks that i now can identify as ocd! i got the same rush from doing them as i did on meth. so... i am not such a nut as i thought! thank God! im sorry to hear you are not doing well. anything i can do just let me know. i think we are all pretty screwy... i hope you find some peace! i am considering the meds seriously. but i did so well! i had a bout of compulsive cutting and vommiting and i stopped that with steps 1-3... and i suppose im hoping the self destructive spiral im in will disappear? heehee Brent, thanks for all the help! you rock! i will pray for you and your friend. i can tell you that in the first 4 months i was certifiably a nut (even moreso than now). it was like i was on a sick one, but i was clean. and it was not sick, i was paranoid and delusional. haha. but... i did gain a crap load of weight during that time! yeah! that station thing rocked! could you pm me the link again? id like to listen again to it but ironically forgot it and probly deleted it... grrr... the dotsters forgetfulness has struck again. haha BIG THANKS! ROCK ON! Jess __________________ probably not.