Really really want a beer, just 2 big ones. This is mythirs night w/ no beer but my first Friday and it is hard. I havent really slept well the last 2 days and I had a good day today and I need to remember that, I had to clean my house for 8 hours and it stil isnt perfect but I had neglected it so badly when drinking, then when my 2 and 1/2 year old cam e home from day care I was already exhausted and then I had to give her a bath and my body hurst so bad as I stopped pain pills as well. I dont know how , messed up I had the energy for all of this and now I am exhausted and dont know what I am goingto do with the weekend. I drink during everything I do, how do I make such a big change. Just sit here and not do anything? My husband asked me to quit for our family and he stopped with me for support even though he never drank to the level I did but I can te he wants and coud really use a beer after his long week of work but he is sticking with me b/c he knows if he gets it I will too. Its hard right now. I totally forgot about St. Paddys 9100% Irish here) and that is also my husbands b-day. I dont know how to do anyhting sober so I dont know what to do with myself and that frustrates me...
