I read the post on here about Miss who lost her friend to an OD and I got thinking about my life. Then I got thinking about my abf. Then the tears started. I feel so lost in my own life. It's so hard to deal with all this. I'm the type that let's things get so far gone that all at once it hits me. Then I'm in a state of shock. I know that's a horrible way to handle things, but it is just how I am. And yes, I know I need to change that about me...
I desperately wanted to go to a meeting tonight - I needed to go, but I missed it. My work held me up too late, babysitter cancelled last minute, my gas light came on on my way home from work... It was like the planets were aligned against me getting there. I can go tomorrow, but I feel like I'm going to be on the floor bawling my eyes out before the night is over. I'm just so overwhelmed by everything.
Please tell me there is hope. I can't see it tonight. The fog around my life is too thick. I've been so positive up until now and I don't know where I let it slip back into the slick-walled hole in the ground.
