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johnsin · 03-05-2009, 04:27 PM

here i am. i was doing good for almost 2 weeks. i stopped drinking Feb 23 but today i went to the store for some milk and OJ. unfortunately they sell beer and i saw it. sooooo, knowing i will probably drink whatever i have, i only bought 1 six pack of beer.
i will get back tomorrow when i probably will feel guilty for doing this to myself. i think it is the mental state we find ourselves. i feel happier and better when i am drinking, than i do when not drinking. i could probably quit longer if not permanintly if i felt happy when not drinking. i feel i always need to alter my state of normalisy. Damn. Later...

back being a slave to this demon.

03-05-2009, 04:27 PM	#1 (permalink)
johnsin Member Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: Covington, LA Posts: 14	jerimia wright * damn alcohol.** here i am. i was doing good for almost 2 weeks. i stopped drinking Feb 23 but today i went to the store for some milk and OJ. unfortunately they sell beer and i saw it. sooooo, knowing i will probably drink whatever i have, i only bought 1 six pack of beer. i will get back tomorrow when i probably will feel guilty for doing this to myself. i think it is the mental state we find ourselves. i feel happier and better when i am drinking, than i do when not drinking. i could probably quit longer if not permanintly if i felt happy when not drinking. i feel i always need to alter my state of normalisy. Damn. Later... back being a slave to this demon.