| My Sister 2
My sister is an end stage alcoholic. She is near the end and cannot remain outside the hospital for more than a few days at a time. She has been sectioned many times to alcohol treatment centers. The last meeting I attended - I call it the life or death last ditch intervention- spurred her to call me repeatedly and tell me how much she hated me for what I was "doing" to her (i.e. speaking the truth about her alcoholism). I know it is the disease talking but god it hurt so bad. I lost my Mom at a young age and my sister (who is much older than me) is all I have. I refuse to enable her and this is what she is so angry about. She will also leave me tearful, sobbing messages about how I've ruined her life because I took the family vehicle away from her (I have power of attorney for my dad who own it) so she couldn't drive drunk. To be honest with you guys, I feel like I've been losing it - severe depression, not eating well, engaging in other self-destructive behaviors. Everything in me is telling me - DETACH, DETACH, don't go down with the ship. Today I got a call from the latest hospital she was admitted to last night with a BAL of .372. They want me to section her for longer term treatment again. THis means going before a judge (2 hrs away) and pleading my case in front of my sister. It sounds awful but I don't think I can emotionally handle it. I love my sister but I am not sure how much more I can take.
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