[ineedanangel]

I am new to the eating issues forum. I have actually been talking on the families of alcoholics forum. I am an anorexic/bulemic who is having marriage problems. My husband's drug of choice is alcohol and I can't take it any more. I think I am finally ready to leave the marriage after dealing with these issues for 15 years. My nerves are soooooo bad right now and all I can think of is eating(food is love, don't you know) and eating and then purging. Either that or I know how horrible I will feel once I've eaten everything, so I almost don't trust myself to eat hardly anything. Then I wouldn't feel so horrible/full. I haven't had any of these feelings in years(since having my two kids). Before having my kiddos, it got pretty bad. My weight got to 87 and all I could afford was outpatient(that wonderful insurance coverage). How do I find a happy medium on my eating????? I need to keep a level head while I'm trying to deal with the marriage problems and give my children everything they need.