[MagicMan08]

In short.....she told me to have a good week when I talked to her last which was two days ago. And I am. If she wants me in her life....she will come back.

But I have came to the conclusion that I am going to live the way I live....and if that is not good enough....well then good luck and good riddance. Because personally, I think I am a pretty good honest respectable person when I am not using. Oh and fun to be around. If she does not call me within a week or two I will call her up and request to get my things back from her place....and move on.

I asked her last week if she had any goals for this next year.....she didn't give me an answer. Meanwhile told her I have several. Like get back to school, make progress on my debt, lose 40lbs, do some aa service work, attend an AA roundup somewhere in MN that I can actually drive to (yay), get a newer vehicle (without whiskey plates)....I just don't get how people can put so much power in someones hands to decide their happiness and piece of mind. To me...the grass is indeed greener on the other side.

THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS READ THIS THREAD......I needed to share this with someone....a guy at a speaker meeting I went to (first in over a year) said that if you have something that is bothering you....talk to someone....anyone.....because staying quiet and letting stuff fester inside you has never done anything positive for an addict and could lead to relapse.