| I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your Mom. I lost my Dad almost 2 & 1/2 years ago and my sister back in '91. I could hear the pain in your thread.
You mentioned shrinks, have you seen a psychologist or psychiatrist? In order for me to let go of the pain, I had to talk about it. I had been in Recovery when my Dad passed away, but when my sister did, I was full blown in my addiction. I held on to all of those feelings, except acting out in negative, self destructive ways for many years. I couldn't begin to grieve in the healthy way until I got clean and sober and talked, talked, talked about it.
Have you ever seen a Psychiatrist to see if you do have any depression or anxiety that some meds may help?
I'll keep you in my Prayers and again, I'm sorry about your Mom,
Judy
__________________  Just when the Catterpillar thought her life was over, She became a Butterfly
7/25/05 |