the depression and anxiety, and grief of losing my mom are eating away at me, that no matter what i do, nothing relieves it until i get high or drunk. not meds (in prescribed doses) not shrinks, not counseling. im so lost and pathetic. im trying, and i keep failing. im tired of this. sorry for venting. i tend to self harm when things get too hard and im beginning to wonder if this isnt an extension of that.
