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i stopped taking the wellbutrin cause i thought it was contributing to manic episodes and would stop the hallucinations but so far nothing. I am taking 9mg of Invega daily but really doesn't seem to control my symptoms I think. The doctor says it is though so whatever. The doctor and my mother are making me wonder if the symptoms are just in my head or if they're real. I guess I'm just really tired of trying to find what works when oxycontin worked so well. My quality of life has gone down even from abusing drugs. During the abuse, my quality of life was better than it is now so I don't know if that's saying something or what. The suboxone is not even controlling the cravings for drugs now, they seemed to have peeked their head out here in the past few days. I'm wondering if I'm just trying to doctor myself or if I'm just trying to tell others what I think I need. I guess I'm just really mixed up right now and don't know what to do again. This happens every once in a while and I really don't know how to handle it. Maybe it's fear. All I do recognize is that I'm in dangerous territory right now. Gonna go call the doctor and see what he says.
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