| Re: Feeling so much pain
Hi there Defoflov,
I know only too well, how you are feeling , and I send you warm hugx across the ocean. I used to be ( still can be) just like you . I was viewed by friends and family, as the " strong " one, and as such, nobody bothered to enquire if I was actually strong .
As far as picking up the phone if I had a problem, nothing was further from my mind, I NEVER rang anyone , unless it was to " fix" something, or relay good news .
I dont know if this is any help for you , or not, but will pass it on , in case . When I shared with my sponser , my horror of ringing anyone , she told me to tape the serenity prayer next to the phone, and to say it out loud before I picked up the phone , and to say it again when I put it down. I did what she suggested , more out of lack of other options, than anything else , and blow me down, after a time it worked ! I really had no belief that it would change anything back then, I just did it , cos it was suggested .
Even if I havent helped , know that I know how you feel, and send HUGE HUGX
Lee
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