[Missybuns]

Hello and welcome to SR.


are you looking for answers or just venting?

I sense your frustration....and there may even be some desperation there.

I personally had to find the underlying issues that fed my addiction. First thing I did was stop using...I had help because I truly needed it. I got some intensive outpatient group therapy and counseling. I was introduced to Narcotics Anonymous. I became educated about addiction and learned I could stay clean if I was willing to change my ways and thinking.

Before I could get the benefits I had to open my mind to letting go of all the unhealthy relationships I was involved in...afterall my life's choices had contributed to my addiction.

I learned that if a relationship worth having was one I was already involved in...then it could and would endure my transition from being an active addict to a grateful and responsible adult in recovery.

If it is meant to be....it will be. Anyone who truly cares about me will support me in my recovery. If who or what ever I am involved with threatens my recovery it is not good for me.

People who truly care about me are not jealous or controlling of me.

I am responsible for all of my decisions. I do not make my decisions based on my emotions.
I did that in the past, before I stopped using drugs, and it only made my projections hurt me worse. I was my own worst enemy by making decisions this way.

I got my personal recovery by getting serious with me, and taking good look inside me and asking some very important questions I had to be honest about.

I allow other people in recovery to help guide me through this process.
I met these knowledgible and experienced people in Narcotics Anonymous meetings. I use the internet in addition to my regular program of recovery.

There are experienced NA members who frequent this forum.

Only you can decide if you are an addict or not. If you decide you are an addict, then only you can help yourself feel better by stopping the progression of your addiction. It's a fighting a losing battle to try and have healthy relationships while still in active addiction.

best wishes,
Missy

PS...I suppose I could have found you in the Substance Abuse forum...but I found this first.