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Happystar · 02-16-2009, 05:13 PM

Since I was a little girl! I have'd cared what people think of me! As I got older! I don't give a damn anymore! At this time in my life! When someone means the world to you, and they are the one who is taking you to the end! What do you do?

I talk on the phone with him all day! And when he gets home! He does not understand why I don't have anything to say! I smoke everyday all day if I can just to deal with him! Now I'm trying to stop and can't! Every time I think I'm about to stop! He does something to make me sadder then I was before hand!

When I don't tell him why I'm so sad! Am I wrong! I tried tell him everyday when we got together, that I'm not used to talking on the phone all day! He said if we are not on the phone then I with someone else! Now on top of trying to stop smoking I have to deal with a man that does not trust me!

I have a problem with trusting people anyway! Now I don't even trust him with my feelings! Thats not good, cause I wish to spend my life with him!

Why does the sun not shine in my life anymore!

My mind is tired! My soul is tired! But there looks like there is no way out of the bottom of the depression!:c004:

02-16-2009, 05:13 PM	#1 (permalink)
Happystar I'm depressed all the time! Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: Dallas, GA Posts: 4	Why the sun does not shine on me! Since I was a little girl! I have'd cared what people think of me! As I got older! I don't give a damn anymore! At this time in my life! When someone means the world to you, and they are the one who is taking you to the end! What do you do? I talk on the phone with him all day! And when he gets home! He does not understand why I don't have anything to say! I smoke everyday all day if I can just to deal with him! Now I'm trying to stop and can't! Every time I think I'm about to stop! He does something to make me sadder then I was before hand! When I don't tell him why I'm so sad! Am I wrong! I tried tell him everyday when we got together, that I'm not used to talking on the phone all day! He said if we are not on the phone then I with someone else! Now on top of trying to stop smoking I have to deal with a man that does not trust me! I have a problem with trusting people anyway! Now I don't even trust him with my feelings! Thats not good, cause I wish to spend my life with him! Why does the sun not shine in my life anymore! My mind is tired! My soul is tired! But there looks like there is no way out of the bottom of the depression!:c004: Last edited by Happystar; 02-16-2009 at 05:30 PM.