Hello Sarah and welcome to SR
It's no rocket science. You keep the pills and sooner or later you will use them.
You are an addict. The facts are there. Using drugs is just a symptom of your addiction.
My suggestions to you are the following:
-Don't contemplate. Don't fool yourself. Don't lie to yourself.Get rid of them this momment.
-Go to an NA meeting today. NA is about a whole lot more than quitting drugs.
The choice is yours, be a slave again or be free...