[eddie z.]

(((Annie))),
Maybe taking some classes would help. But I went through a similar desperately lonely period in my life, and what I learned is that I do not HAVE to have a boyfriend. What I NEED is to be able to spend time alone. I'm not saying we don't need friends, but placing excessive importance on having a "relationship" kept me crazy and depressed for a long time because I didn't have what I thought I needed. Turned out I was just wrong about what I needed.

I need to be OK with myself before I can really be OK with someone else. And I need to cultivate relationships with other women, too. Do you have a sponsor? Maybe you could talk to her about how you're feeling. Also, do your AA friends not do stuff together outside of meetings? I go out to eat with folks after meetings all the time. I hope this helpful and not too harsh or preachy. I wish you the very best!
Love, Eddie (female)