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It is a struggle to stay in reality when you can ease the whole thing so very easily. If only the drugs would work more than a week! And you do land up just being unhappy, just the whole cycle of it all.
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LB- How do you ease the whole thing.IMHO,if I had one problem and decided to use then my problems end up multiplied by 5.The last time I used I crashed my car.Every time I relapse my using gets worse and more out of control. I am so sick of the chaous and mess.I couldnot even plan a single day because I'd never know wether I'd be too high or too depressed from a wd.You just have to hang in.You have to ride though it all.There's nothing else you can do.I always said next time would be better and let me use now and then tomorrow I'll start all over again.It's the same vicious circle we all go through it.
Amy, I am glad to know that you're not tempted to take more.It's just that being around pills is a very bad idea especially with your stepmom abusing pain meds.It's not a healthy environment for recovery .