[ananda]

I'm fine, but just to share an unexpected thought pattern to watch for


I thought about buying a bottle before checking into the hotel..just crossed my mind...a little odd cause i could imagine it.

I've been thinking about the clean up and how i'm gonna have to go over to that big empty house to pick up the last stuff and somehow dispose of lumber, and I kept thinkig of how i could get a bottle and enjoy the time as well and not feel guilty about not being at work. I have that "metal" taste in my mouth that i use to get when i drank...i think it's related to high blood sugar and i ate waffles with syrup this mroning..sooo

Anyways...this is all troublsome to me, but if I go to a meeting I fiddle fart the day away and end up in worse shape tomarrow with getting things done...not sure what to do to change my thought pattern

Any ideas? What works for you guys when the thoughts become repetitive although only annoying..not feeling like acting on it but as i type this i realize it's stronger than i thought.

I won't drink...but it just seems to keep popoing into my mind bottle bottle bottle stop and get a bottle.