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I admitted to my girlfriend about 2 weeks ago, and I still admit it today, that I am an alcoholic. We have been dating for 4 years now. We met not to long after my discharge from the Marine Corps. She is a very strong person to put up with me for as long as she has. She was diagnosed with Diabetes type 1 just before we met. When we first started dating we enjoyed each others company, but I would have these horrendous outbursts especially when I was intoxicated. I'm not a doctor or anything but I believe that the outbursts were due to the fact of what I saw, and what I went through while in the Corps. I would yell to the top of my lungs to get a point across, just as if I were a D.I. yelling at a recruit. Sometimes I would even find myself counting down "you got 10, 9, 8 7...and so on. Now if I would have been in her shoes at the time, I would have said, "See ya psycho." About 2 years of this go by and she sticks it out, gotta love her whew. Anyway, I soon realize that what I am doing is wrong, and I find it within myself to calm down, hardly anymore yelling. Now it's been 4 years but I still drink too much. Need more space sorry. I'll finish on the reply.