You are all so right. I feel much better about my decision and realize that it is definitely time to take care of myself. Timetogo, I really loved the quote about unacceptable behaviors and it is so true. I really understand about the disease but also agree that you have to seek treatment. It's time I took charge of my life and stop spending so much energy on what might happen or how can I stop it from happening. I just have to learn to deal with what happens. I'm hoping alanon can help me with that part of it.
You are all a blessing.