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I entered Research and Development ..six times!
My career coincided with my City job as a test dummy..jaywalker.
AA was too hard..Step 3, God?
I was running from Him..no way!
Step 4? Nuh Uh! Scary.
Step 8? You gotta be kidding...
In between..couldn't give up my speed pills..I might get too tired on the job.
I might not have enough energy to gamble after staying up all night..(the night before that.)
Fear.
Plain old unadulterated fear. It kept me from going in too far..and kept me from
going back too soon. And ego..sheeeesh!
Now that I'm in, really in..it is easy compared to what is was like before.
Before was hell. For me and everyone who cared.
It is so much softer, and so much easier...
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